I think this is the worst I’ve felt in the last couple of years, all in all. Everything has reached the most dire point and I need one simple, elusive thing to release all my tension and angst and it has eluded me all my life. I can’t even work off my frustration. I was biking so fast that night because I was trying to exhaust my angst-given energy. Now all I can do is sit for the next several weeks, and I can’t even manage to masturbate. The body can be a cruel thing sometimes.